Journey

Selling all my stuff

Went to Watergardens to meetup with someone who is picking up something I had for sale. Ended up having a coffee and chat about what I’m doing with my life. Realized by talking about it with her, that when I was talking about what I am doing, I really felt good.

Travelling around in my van, being nice to people, helping where I can, and interviewing people who are living life to their heart and living outside of the box. And that is something that makes ‘my’ heart sing.

When you don’t follow your heart you end up: nasty, sick, depressed, suffocating, stressed out of your mind, and stuck.
And when you live true to your heart, to what you feel “what feels better, what feels good, what feels right”, you don’t think about any other negative thing.

When I was talking about that with her, I felt more motivated to get going, I felt really hopeful.

I’ve been sick last 3 days and confused about all the experiences I’ve been having, and then having to go to work and pretend like I’m not having these ‘crazy experiences’ outside of work.

And I want to “not be crazy” but then, I can’t explain the things that are going on, without sounding crazy.

And now, when I’m talking to a stranger about where I’ve been and where I’m going, and about their life and where they are and where would be ‘better’, that exchange, that conversation was amazing because it was exactly what I needed, to feel warm again all throughout my body. I feel safe to follow my dreams.

I don’t know how I’m going to do it, but I feel safer doing it. I feel like I have no other choice. I can’t do “the other life” now, I can only move towards “this” – not even knowing which way it’s going to go, or who I’m going to meet, or “if” I’m going to interview, but talking about the fact that this is what I want to do, made me feel like this is the right – like everything was ok, the “right path”.

I think it’s really important that we actually move towards what our heart tells us to do.

Just knowing, just “thinking about it” made me feel better.

Now I know that I just need to focus on what feels good, not on my “crazy stuff” as much, and not to focus on anything that moves me ‘out of alignment’.